[Last couple of days in 2009]
2009 seems like a nasty year but indeed it's not.
Too many opportunities have come up this year, so I always have to make a choice! This pressure forces me to look into myself in order to realize what I am capacable of doing and what fits me the best. Also, it's been examining my attitude towards things. For most of the time, I didn't feel comfortable with this stress; hence, I missed chances and messed up a lot of things. But, there are always somebody backing me up and giving me supports and opportunities that I did not deserve. These are real chances that I have been dreaming about and I 'm just lucky, so I really have to hold fast to these rare chances and not to waste them anymore.
The failure of this year is a warning for me - Never again.
Planning for my future. It had been a too long while for me thinking what to do if I had time. But, the thing is: I never really have the time... okay fine, I just learn to squeeze it now.
As a fresher of life, really don't believe that you are mature enough, and it's actually good to play young. That's how you can make mistakes and learn things. Young boy, show me your guts!